this existence hurts my skin…

Posted on May 10, 2021May 10, 2021 Posted in AuthorshipTagged blogging, Diary, English, here i love, Life, Life Writing, Love, pain, personal, personal blogging, poem, Prose, Relationships, tiny narratives, women's narratives, Writing LifeLeave a comment

they say tomorrow might be the waves i cannot see
the sheer anticipation of what might have been
we’ve grown so old from heartbreaks so young a dream
we’re so vast a universe but no words to swarm in
this existence hurts my skin it hurts more everytime it doesn’t bleed
here in this dark place everything is shameful and unforgiven but
there’s a rabbit hole down here and there’s you and i and the world disappears we need to be somewhere else
but here we are, bloated up
and shrunk down into an instagram post

And There Will I Be

Posted on August 14, 2020August 14, 2020 Posted in Authorship, ProseTagged art, Blogger, blogging, book, Books, Diaries, Diary, emotions, English, feminism, Indie, Life, literature, Love, narratives, novel, pain, personal, poem, poems, poetry, Prose, Relationship, Relationships, wordpress, WritingLeave a comment

for-ever

I dream you still. And there I will be.

You don’t know my name. This is the past. And us is just a butterfly effect that didn’t happen. We are apart and at peace, just as before your eyes met mine, before our hands brushed and our words hushed. Before our secrets born into judging eyes. This is before everything.

And I am telling you this so you will search for me no more.

“I Want These Dreams Inside of Me”, When I My Own Daughter

We Will Count to Twelve, and We Will All Keep Still

Posted on August 10, 2020August 10, 2020 Posted in Authorship, Diary, poemTagged art, blogging, Life, Love, Pablo Neruda, personal, poem1 Comment

Now we will count to twelve,

and we will all keep still.

i love you all year long For once on the face of the earth,
let’s not speak in any language;
let’s stop for one second,
and not move our arms so much.

It would be an exotic moment
without rush, without engines;
we would all be together
in a sudden strangeness.

Fisherman in the cold sea
would not harm whales
and the man gathering salt
would look at his hurt hands.

Those who prepare green wars,
wars with gas, wars with fire,
victories with no survivors,
would put on clean clothes
and walk about with their brothers
in the shade, doing nothing.

What I want should not be confused
with total inactivity.
Life is what it is about;
I want no truck with death.

If we were not so single-minded
about keeping our lives moving,
and for once could do nothing,
perhaps a huge silence
might interrupt this sadness
of never understanding ourselves
and of threatening ourselves with death.
Perhaps the earth can teach us
as when everything seems dead
and later proves to be alive.

Now I’ll count up to twelve
and you keep quiet and I will go.

“Keeping Quiet”, Pablo Neruda

I Can’t Grow A New Heart

Posted on August 7, 2020 Posted in Authorship, Diary, poetryTagged art, birthdays, book, Book Release, Books, Contemporary, Diaries, Diary, English, happy birthday, Indie Book, Life, Life Writing, literature, live, Love, love poem, love poems, poem, poem book, poetry, Poetry Collection, Writing, Writing LifeLeave a comment

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these stories, they come to me in dreams the first time I fell asleep since they told me you’ve fallen into flatline

I dream you

sometimes in colours, green and oranges, purples and blues, and not bleak nor dark, we are not in the shadows

in these dreams, our children they’re born. they’re not sucked to death, they’re not stillborn nor bled away

they live and we give

names to their innocent loving faces

the eldest has my eyes, her brother has your smile

in these dreams we’re not bitter

we’re not numb from pain

in these dreams you are standing tall

little daughter dances on your devoted steadfast feet

her brother clung to your arms, his head rests on your secure and sturdy shoulder.

he’s falling into another dream.

in these dreams, I dance with you under the chuppah

and you recite a long vow, a song we used to hum

before we went to sleep

about lovers

lost

and again,

found.

On birthdays that are wiser,

On Letters to Lovers Lost.

Quietly Drift… Drift… Like the Wind Softly…

Posted on April 7, 2020June 25, 2020 Posted in AuthorshipTagged art, blogging, English, friends, friendship, friendships, Indie, Life, life wriring, literature, live, Love, narrative, narratives, personal, poem, poetry, tiny narratives, women's narratives, words, writers, Writing, Writing LifeLeave a comment

drips on honeydew holy water new

icy breeze colourful rainbow rain, rain on me

don’t bite the bliss on an empty stomach

but ignore ignore, red flags or compliance

so wobbly a place you barely stand

filled with cracks you’re bound for heartbreaks

here we are and here i am

you go be you, i’ll stay and pretend

a friend that is not till the end

a ship that is slowly sinking

quietly drift drift like the wind softly

gone and forgotten, i’ll be

… Those Isle of Yours that Wait for Me

Posted on March 29, 2020June 25, 2020 Posted in poemTagged art, Life, literature, Love, Pablo Neruda, poem, poetryLeave a comment

Pablo Neruda

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep your eyes close.

101 Sonnets, Pablo Neruda

This Much I Do Remember

Posted on March 26, 2020June 29, 2020 Posted in poetryTagged art, billy collins, Life, literature, Love, poem, poetryLeave a comment

this much i remember

It was after dinner. You were talking to me across the table about something or other, a greyhound you had seen that day or a song you liked,

and I was looking past you over your bare shoulder, at the three oranges lying on the kitchen counter next to the small electric bean grinder. which was also orange, and the orange and the white cruets, for vinegar oil,

all of which converged into a random still life, so fastened together by the hasp of color, and so fixed behind the animated foreground of your talking and smiling, gesturing and pouring wine, and the camber of your shoulder

that I could feel it being painted within me, brushed on the wall of my skull, while the tone of your voice lifted and fell in its flight, and the three oranges remained fixed on the counter the way stars are said to be fixed in the universe.

Then all the moments of the past began to line up behind that moment and all the moment to come assembled in front of it in a long row, giving me reason to believe that this was the moment that rush out of sight into darkness behind the eyes.

Even after I have forgotten what year it is, my middle name, and the meaning of money, I will still carry in my pocket the small coin of that moment minted in the kingdom that we pace through every day.

This Much I Do Remember, Billy Collins

It Doesn’t Conquer All…

Posted on March 18, 2020March 18, 2020 Posted in Authorship, poemTagged art, blogging, English, Indie Author, Life, Life Writing, literature, Love, personal, personal blogging, poem, poems, poetry, Relationship, wording, wordpress, words, Writer, Writing, Writing LifeLeave a comment

a ring on your plate when i cooked you

eggs, our years apart summarised into one morning

of jars and jars, bottled up feelings

of you looking into me, looking into something

of me saying things without a sound

our lives in suspended compartments

bubbles of cliches against time voices people

it is kind, it is patient and it is all you need but

it doesn’t conquer all, it’s never the answer

my love for you, insincere and vague.

Everyone Wants A Piece of That Fame…

Posted on October 4, 2019October 4, 2019 Posted in Authorship, Where Are You Going, Where Have You Been?Tagged art, book, Books, Diaries, Diary, English, fame, feminism, hollywood, Indie, Life, Life Writing, literature, Love, poem, poems, poetry, Prose, Relationship, Relationships, stardom, Writing, Writing LifeLeave a comment

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everybody wants a piece of that fame

you bring to the table

so they put you on a silver plate at first

but then they feel it’s too fancy for

a hollywood roadkill like you so

they move you to

a worn out wooden cutting board

slice you up real nice into tiny bits of pieces

each to their own but

you’re there for everyone, suit yourself!

they happily

chew you up real slow

saving every flavor splattered on

the walls of their mouths their gums they lick

their teeth and lips everytime they got

that fancy exposure

they swallow you and finger the rest

of your blood

on their knives

and I sit there watching

thinking if I should get

my share

of that fame

but I am not

made for the public eye

I spill your tea on

everyone’s table

this fame of yours

hardly fits

my brain, should you

know what I want, it’s

your crimson blood

rushing through

my flesh

I want that lush

I want that rush

when i you and you,

“Mirrors”, Letters to Sylvia, 2019

I Have Spread My Dreams Under Your Feet

Posted on May 20, 2019May 20, 2019 Posted in AuthorshipTagged art, artwork, blogging, Life, Life Writing, litertature, Love, minimal, minimalism, personal, poem, poems, poetry, simplicity, Writing LifeLeave a comment

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i can never understand how

the universe works; or how you

expand like the milky way spreading

in space i can only stare from

a good distance.

There Are Clouds in These Dreams

Posted on May 8, 2019July 28, 2019 Posted in Authorship, That was Then, This is NowTagged Author, autobiography, blogging, book, Book Release, Book Teaser, Diaries, Diary, Female, Female Body, Feminine, feminism, Gender, Gender Conscious, Helene Cixous, Indie Author, Indie Book, Life, Life Writing, personal, poem, poetry, Poetry Collection, sylvia plath, Writing LifeLeave a comment

Letter to Sylvia Cover “…there are clouds in these dreams and i am flying hard between ashes,

did you not get burned at stakes?

there are words in these dreams but I am not one saying them,

to swallow alone is pain. to breathe, a sin.

not one word out but here are letters for when you wake up,

she said, you will tell them how to say it out loud,

even with tears in their eyes. tell them.

and so I write.”

Get this book here.

Let Me Write It Simple

Posted on May 6, 2019July 20, 2019 Posted in Authorship, That was Then, This is NowTagged art, blogging, Life, Life Writing, literature, Love, personal, poem, poetry, Writing Life2 Comments

it’s always messy down here in your basement

where memories go to a happy place

they say i’m in love with love

but i never knew how to flaunt it

in between unsaid words and

staggering poetry so let me write it simple:

i want you, life, serene and tender

i want you, love, without going so much on a bender

Remember This, Love, for Time is a Loop

Posted on April 22, 2019August 7, 2019 Posted in AuthorshipTagged art, Author, blogging, book, Book Release, Book Teaser, English, Indie Author, Indie Book, indie books, Indie Publishing, Life, Life Writing, literature, Love, personal, poem, poetry, Prose, Writing, Writing LifeLeave a comment

Right before our parting, mother sat me down in a meadow. She apologetically held my hands then placed a flower crown on my hair.

She said, “Remember this, love, for time is a loop. You will come back for me.”

Little did she know, time was in denial.

So suddenly as I realised this, she turned into a montage of old photographs between flashing lights.

I saw her,

the staggering girl between

dark webs,

I saw her vague fingers inside

his feathered glory,

such indifferent beak cloud,

white rush oh there there

brute brute blood!

here’s burning roof and tower

the centre cannot hold,

things fall apart…

____

Phrases in W. B. Yeats’ poems “Leda and the Swan” and “The Second Coming”, in this part of my book, are rearranged in an attempt of deconstruction. WB Yeats poems are an integral and essential part of my book, When I, My Own Daughter, available here.

Photo Credit: Alessio Albi

Stories of A Little Girl Named Lara

Posted on March 18, 2019July 14, 2019 Posted in Authorship, Notes on Reading YouTagged art, artwork, Author, autobiography, blogging, Books, Diary, He Said She Said, Life, literature, Looking Back, Love, pain, personal, poem, poetry, Prose, Relationships, Separation, writers, WritingLeave a comment

i’ve been carving memories on dry walls

four seasons of loneliness and you came bearing your own

stories of a little girl named Lara

her face her smile her every breath you inhale her

a picture perfect deep into your soul

she exists to you in ways that I could not

she has a smile that’s similar to mine, you said

her hair is golden like the sun,

this little ballerina and her pink tutu

and when she cries you cup her tears in your palms letting

them soak into the lines of your hands that once

a fortune teller told you, you wouldn’t make it to forty,

that you would be entangled in a story like none other

she said I would write them for you so daddy’s little girl

could forever lives in rhymes…

in bedtime stories and lullabies…

“daddy’s little girl, paints the world with her magic wand…”

from Letters to Lovers Lost

currently progressing, Lara

The Sea, and Sand in Your Eyes

Posted on March 4, 2019 Posted in AuthorshipTagged art, blogging, Life, literature, Love, personal, poem, poetry, WritingLeave a comment

some days I got wildflowers

sprouting out

of my mouth

down my swollen chest

and there I saw the sea,

and sand in your eyes,

dripping down

of all the things

we’ve left behind.

Who Are We Without This Distance?

Posted on October 9, 2018February 20, 2019 Posted in AuthorshipTagged art, Author, blogging, Diary, Life, literature, pain, personal, poem, poetry, Relationship, Relationships, WritingLeave a comment

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a raft of hope floating at sea
but the water knows loneliness too well
and how you and i swim deep into changing currents
oh how we used to row row our boat roughly
to the unseen… and so i hurl my heart

i’d stay drowned so the water will feel me
and consume me, aren’t we all
liquids with cold cold hearts,
should we not come home already
dust to dust?

but the sun oh the sun comes
and how i long to bob out and float
and sway with the waves, they’ll find you
the wind whispers

what are we without the ocean?
who are we without this distance?

What’s Life Without Poetry You Stuff into My Mouth?

Posted on October 4, 2018February 20, 2019 Posted in AuthorshipTagged art, Authorship, blogging, Diary, Girl Talk, Life, lifewriting, literature, personal, poem, poetry, Relationship, Writing, writinglifeLeave a comment

day one. dark coffee, abandoned building, a pile of classics: joyce, dante, zola. day two. endless driving, darker coffee, my heart palpitated in halts. tiny déjà vu. day three. turned off instagram(s). lay around on the grass. napping. dreaming. a land faraway. day four. wrote about the ocean. so blatantly. mundane and irresponsible. called you to tell you i did it. you paused too long. i hung up. day five. long walks to the orchard. long walks back. hours on treadmills. more coffee. irish. my heart exploded. day six. wrote sonnets. iambic pentameter. bad. really really bad. read them to you. you said don’t hang up just yet. day seven. beachy sunrise. pancakes overdone. overrated poetry books. blogged mean things about you. you read it and kissed me. the end.

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Nothing Pretty Comes for Free

Posted on October 4, 2018February 20, 2019 Posted in AuthorshipTagged art, artwork, blogging, lifewriting, literature, pain, personal, poem, poetry, Writing, writinglifeLeave a comment

dear me dear me
i checked you off my bucket list, turning you from a dream to reality
giving ways for envious eyes staring when i held you with me
you’re so pretty i could not resist this temptation, the poetry i’d be
but destiny is as cruel as it can be
i broke you to pieces, a whole again i might never be

dear me dear me
this is what life tried to tell me, nothing pretty comes for free
they keep telling “you’re milk and honey”
and that “the truth will set you free”
but i know better than to let these demons be
taking up space in between deceit and sincerity
when all i ever wanted was to go back being me

dear me dear me
being pretty never comes for free

thank you Ayas, for letting me write this with you.

Flattery Does Me No Good. But These Are My Songs.

Posted on June 26, 2018July 14, 2019 Posted in AuthorshipTagged Author, Authorship, autobiography, blogging, Book Review, Books, Diary, Indie Author, Indie Writers, Life, literature, Love, personal, poem, poetry, Prose, Review, writers, WritingLeave a comment

If words were breath and phrases life… I am rarely moved by other peoples’ poetry. It takes a truly unique writer to penetrate below my natural cynicism. I tell you all: this is the one book of poetry, the first in a long time, to feel authentic, brave and sincere. I LOVE THIS BOOK!

(Martha Humphreys, Amazon.com)

Within these pieces, you will find so much raw emotion and talent. The ink on these pages will soak into your skin and claw into your skull. You will never forget reading such a powerful book. Maia is destined for greatness.

(Anonymous, Amazon.com)

How do you describe a book as an experience? Letters to Sylvia is not just flattery words knitted together in a string of poems. It is a journey you want and need to embark. It is a sigh at the end not wanting to get off that plane of emotions. This is not just a book. It’s an experience. Read, woman!

(Anonymous, Amazon.co.uk)

This book was just like one of those Sunday afternoons when you just don’t want to do nothing but sit down and take a walk down the memory lane. This book reeks of nostalgia and heartbreak. My personal favourites were Period ( this one left me gutted and awestruck), Adieu ( made me sigh) and Feminine Mystique ( this one BROKE MY HEART). And I loved the fact that the poet somehow wrote it as an ode/ dedication to Sylvia, my all time favourite. The only thing that I would like to change would be the fact that it was just 85 pages long. I absolutely loved the tone and the flow so I guess I would’ve loved it a tad bit more if it included a few more poems!

(Mariah, Goodreads.com)

Get this baby here.

It’s Fine. I Have Made Peace with The Fact That I Am a Writer

Posted on January 15, 2018July 14, 2019 Posted in AuthorshipTagged Book Release, Books, Diary, Girl Talk, Indie Writers, International Debut, Life, Life Writing, literature, Love, poem, poetry, Writes, Writing, Writing LifeLeave a comment

BookCoverImage I have 16 blogs and 5 instagram handles. I am one of the curators in three poetry communities. I have been featured many times in other poetry pages and online magazine. My novel is longlisted for an award in UK and is up for another one . I have written about 40 something titled diaries in which most I threw away, some I turned into memoir-fiction and some I digitized. I have about 8 unpublished poem books and am releasing 2 new ones this year.

I am coming out. It’s fine. I have made peace with the fact that I am a writer.

Get my international debut here.

maia diaries

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